Hey look, another Blog! Who’d have thought?
So last week I ended up extending my holiday in Florida, which put a minor hold on DMQ. Not to worry; it’s coming, if I haven’t already posted the first scene of the first episode by the time this Vlog drops. As it turns out, I am still dogshit at multitasking! But now that I’m home, I’m constantly searching for ways to be busy: learning, writing, cooking, what have you.
Which brings me to my “new” project, rereading The Artist’s Way by Julia Cameron. Or, at least, going through the workbook aspects again; every time I try to genuinely re-read the whole thing, I get bored and cop out one week in. The ADHD is really ADHDestroying my life, but it’s fine it’s cool it’s SO casual and I am totally not losing my grip on reality.
Last time I went through the book, though (in 2019), I had one of my best years to date. Now I’m coming at it with the mindset of “I’ve done it once, I can do it again.” This time, though, I’m not working at Disney World, and my social connections look completely different; will that impede my journey? Who knows! I’m actually kind of excited to find out what new and creative ways I approach this whole thing.
In other news, the Burnout has really taken a toll on me. The concept of a book as a single, long-term project makes me want to curl up in a ball and sleep for the next two-hundred years. I have all these ideas on how to grow my social media, marketing my books and connecting to an audience and just Being Myself but Online, but the actual execution of my plans is this big insurmountable series of tasks that take days or weeks to accomplish. Anything more than the most basic tasks feels daunting like you wouldn’t BELIEVE.
I’m not venting for attention here– woe is most certainly not me, because I’ve just… changed my plan to have a better approach. Progress is allowed to be slow! And my hope is that someone else reads this and decides their progress is allowed to be slow. You should be able to pivot your goals, or slow them down, or re-prioritize them, when you’re facing things like executive dysfunction, planning paralysis, anxiety, or burnout. I’ve decided to focus on this blog/DMQ, and my own physical and mental health. Maybe I’ll remember to take some nice aesthetic before and after pictures for my personal Instagram, and maybe some nice candids of myself writing for my Booksta, but if I don’t, I’ll be okay. I’m having plenty of fun just being on WordPress, to be perfectly honest.
A bit of a shorter one this week, but I hope y’all had fun reading it anyway 🙂 See you next week!
Stephanie C Surma 